so i have come to the conclusion that i am losing it. there are many things i've never been able to do well, or at all... and i've kinda come to accept that... but now it seems the i can't do the things that i've always done well and have always brought me joy well at all. something is wrong and it's fucking pissing me off. mother fucker.

i dunno...

it's hard to find any self value these days i guess...