so, because the everpresent boredom is getting to me, i'm going to try to post a funny/crazy picture in my photoblog everyday starting today.

kinda like the ill-fated thought of the day... but with pictures.

no, it probably won't last any longer... but i don't really care cause i'm bored.

conclusions of the day (well, actually yesterday now that it's the am):

soul caliber 2 is fun.

dance with intensity is fun.

i should go to sleep ealier and get up ealier.

when you find an e-mail in your inbox from your teaching assistant 3 days after an essay was due telling you he never recieved it, it is a bad thing.

when you send a frantic e-mail to your teaching assistant with your essay attached assuring him that you did e-mail it to him on time and begging that he not dock you points it's a scary thing.

when you recieve and e-mail later that night from your teaching assistant telling you that other people had problems sending to the e-mail address he told us to use and that he would not take off any points for lateness it is a very, very good thing.


that will be all for now.

once again: college papers can die, go to hell and die.

although this one is a work of fiction and is at least somewhat intellectually interesting to write, but still a pain in the ass.

in other news: the semester is almost over. it's a good thing.

i would give just about anything to live perpetually in cyf church camp.

i figure that just about any other cyf'er would agree.



i miss it sooooo much. and you know i'm serious when i do something dumb like adding the extra o's in 'so'.

it was brought to my attention that half-life 2 comes out and i immediately blog about how something is missing in my life. heh, that's twisted. i mean, hl2 is the second coming of computer gaming... and it isn't enough.

ain't that a bitch?

i dunno, it's not that nothing seems worth doing, it's that everything seems so damn trivial. it's an odd feeling. not necessarily depressing, just kind of a void. i believe it all boils down to my search for my purpose in life, or if not something that deep and amazing, just my search for what i want to do and achieve in life. as it stands right now i have no idea. nothing i can think of sounds appealing at the moment... well, except doing nothing, which is not a satisfactory answer for me (the whole void thing mentioned earlier).

or... perhaps it's really just a symptom of every young guy (well, 90% of them statistically speaking) ; the desire for a girlfriend, an area of my life in which is seem totally incapable of effecting change.

i don't think it's either of these reason exclusively, nor only these reasons that have brought about my current state. more like a hodgepodge mix of various things most likely. those two are the biggest though, i think.

i'm not sure what i'm hoping to achieve with these angsty blogs. i've already thought through all of this stuff (to the best of my ability) in my head, so using it as an opportunity to think about it isn't the reason. i dunno. might be a kind of twisted desire to force my own deep inner problems on to other's. or perhaps i'm just bored and felt like blogging. either way. :)



oh, and also: i'm a badass for beating half-life 2 in less than 24 hours. heh. how's that for trivial!

i was quite pissed in my last blog entry.

i still am, to a much lesser degree. not for the same reason. just a handful of minor annoyances that are bringing me down.

oh well. something good needs to happen. something that isn't directly related to college and classes, that area of my life is fine. not sure what i'd like to do or what i want though. meh, guess i'll find out when i get it... or don't get it. heh.

so i just wrote at least a page worth of blog and when i tried to publish blogger messed up and i lost it all...


i fucking hate everthing... damn it. pisses me off.

i finally get around to blogging, seriously blogging and it gets all screwed up. i really don't feel like typing all that again. damn this pisses me off...

trent reznor owns me.

wow... that thought of the day thing sure went the way of new coke and crystal pepsi in short order...

damn it...

damn it damn it damn it...

oh well... soon after i came up with the idea i kind of decided i wanted to take my blog in a different direction, a much more serious one. i'd like to post my formal thoughts on life, and, well, anything. small essay-ette's if you will. (and you will!) i just haven't had the time and/or emotional fortitude to do it as of late. i wanna start out by just kinda doing a stream of consciousness thingy (yes--techincal term). maybe just let the thoughts flow and see where i end up. i think it would help me and it might actually prove interesting. i just havn't been able to get going on it.

at least i'll know who actually gives a care (heh) by determining who will actually read all this shit i plan on writing... yay!

oh, and there aren't any comments on my last few posts (and i thought they were at least fairly interesting...). it makes me a sad blogger. :(

well, expect some semi-philisophical, semi-coherent, semi-worth-reading, writings in the future...

...that is if i can get myself to do them.





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and to all my blog readers: i love you all...
... now comment you bastards. :)

well... i voted. and i watched coverage of the election into the wee hours of the night...

and...

cry.



well, i did manage to receive some good political news today... not nearly on the same scale as the election... but... i'm gonna be in a kick ass government class next semester, it's texas politics, but it's a special version of the class with an incredible professor. it's very discussion based and i'll actually be going down to austin to meet with politicians and such... gonna be great.

but as for the country and world in general...

cry.

i am currently in the process of pulling my first college all-nighter. w00t!

not really my fault... i honestly didn't procrastinate that much, it's just that all of my teachers decided to conspire against me... i mean, i had a major assignment due at the beginning of this week in all but one of my classes. WEAK.

oh well, it has been fun. heh, tim let me drive his car (he was busy poker'ing it up and is now writing a paper that he has due today a.k.a. he's pulling an all-nighter too) to go get some bawls. bought a 24-pack. oh the goodness... though at least half the box was very quickly drank by the poker hooligans upstairs... it's ok though, they're good peoples.

on that note, no i don't play poker, but i do hang out with them when they do. i'm the official 'poker commentator' as they put it. wow, i get to drive tim's car and i get a special title, boy do i feel like a million bucks!

well, i better get back to finishing my paper (almost done!)... i just needed a break and i figured that a momentous occasion such as this deserved a blog.

hopefully next time i stay up all night it'll be because i want to, not because i have to. :)

thought of the day:

life would be a lot better if not for the incessant stream of bullshit i must deal with.

also it would be better if there were more ninjas and if it had a sound track...

...but mainly the bullshit thing.