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Saturday, June 18, 2005

on dreams...


it's not the nightmares that frighten me. i know that it will all be over as soon as i wake up.

no, what frightens me are the good dreams, no, the great dreams in which everything is good and i feel fulfilled and truly happy.

why? because i know that it will all be over as soon as i wake up.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

a chill is running throughout my entire body at the moment...

just finished watching 'unbreakable'. damn... it's crazy. i actually thought it was going to be fairly straitforward until the very end... crazy m. night and his crazy movies.

yeah, it's very good, recommended it now is.

Monday, June 06, 2005

'Bout high time I updated... sorry. (mainly to myself for neglecting my blog, which I enjoy writing a great deal.)

I've been going through a few changes recently, most all of which are of a superficial nature and relate to the maintenance of the status quo. These changes will now be listed and perhaps elaborated upon. I will also probably just talk about other things that I feel deserve a blog mention. Anyway, here we go:

I moved out of the apartment i've spent the last year in (5711). My lease ended at the end of last month. I'm now chillin' in Michael's apartment, 3821. It's been pretty good, though rather chaotic because Michael is still somewhat in the process of moving in and the Waterview office has sprayed for bugs twice in our aparement. The bugs seem to be, for the most part, gone now, which is good for Emily, who spends a great deal of the time at the apartement and is not a fan of bugs... to say the least. I'm basically just living in the living room (imagine that, heh). The couch is my bed when I sleep and chair-back when I'm sitting at my computer, which is on the floor in the corner. It's acutally a really comfortable lan-party-esque setup. Michael and I are getting along well, though we don't spend too much time hanging out due to our differing schedules. Hopefully that will change as my schedule becomes more normalized and permanant, which leads me into my next bit of information that I wish to share:

I'm now employed. Yes, it's true, I can no longer consider myself a bum. I now work at the Best Buy at LBJ and Midway. Once I've completed my training I will be a sales person on the floor of the computer departement. I'm actually looking forward to it. I had my orientation yesterday and my first day of training today. Training sucks, I can't wait to actually perform the real job, I watched many customer interactions happen today and it looks like a lot of fun and fairly challenging. It will be good to have something on which to focus my efforts this summer. Also: the money won't hurt. Heh. My first day of work (yes, I actually did do work today, just not important work) has left me quite tired. I'll get used to it and a normalized working schedule (as in getting up before 1 pm) soon and things will be fine.

Those are the two big changes/things going on in my life at the moment.

I went camping last Friday at Erwin Park in Mckinney with Ross, Michael, Marius, and Emily. It was a great deal of fun. Michael cooked while I created the fire. I hadn't had the chance to build a fire in a long time. Although I do not regret quitting Boy Scouts, many of the really good memories surfaced during the experience. I managed to build a very excellent fire and keep it going all through out the night. I did have to use a small squirt of lighter fluid to initially get it going, but that was only because all of the wood was damp from the rain that had fallen earlier in the day. I was very close to getting it going without the artifical, pansy-ass, flammable liquid. We sat around the fire for most all of the night simply talking about life, the last year at UTD, and where we are now in our lives. It was great.

Although With_Teeth is a much better cd (of course), System of a Down's new cd Mesmerize is quite good. The song Violent Pornography makes me happy. Good stuff.

Finished watching the series Big O. Silly. Silly, but good. Also, I have no idea what happened at the end of the series, I suppose I'll have to do some reading on the topic or something.

I'm blogging this as I wait for Michael to return from his counseling session on campus. Just for clarification: he goes to the counselor because he greatly enjoys it and because he gains a great deal from it, not because he's fucked-up in the head... well, at least not anymore than the rest of us. Anyway, I was actually thinking about checking out the on-campus counseling services. They're free as long as you only go every so often (well, by free I mean they are included as part of the fee's you pay in your tuition). I think that I might also find counseling sessions to be fun and benefical, but I can't really think of anything I'd like to talk to the counselor about. I'm sure that there would be something to talk about if I went and the counselor started asking questions, and I know that I could always talk about that one topic that seems to permeate every deep, emotional, expressive conversation that I have with my very close friends. I dunno, I'll have to think further on the topic.

I've been correctly capitalizing things this post. I'm not sure exactly why. Whateva. Maybe I'll keep it up in the future, maybe not.


Now that I have just about everything in my "standard" life set up and satisfactorily achieved perhaps I can start focusing on the other things, the more important things. Well, at least I might be able to when I'm not working... heh. More to post on that later, perhaps. Maybe in the essay-blog (either mine or the community one that we're never going to actually make).

--Signing off--